Endomorphs not so bad.

Well anyway, Just to review, I read "Prometheus Rising" by Robert Anton Wilson which involves an eight circuit model of consciousness, I think originally developed by Timothy Leary. One of these circuits is the "metareprogramming circuit" in which you can reprogram all the other levels before it. I forget which it circuit it is, I'll have to check.

Wislon also talks about various "somatypes" which is a body type model, developed by This Guy Sheldon. Sheldon had it tied in with personality traits. I went over all these in earlier posts.

I am a combo of all three types Endomorph, ectomorph and mesomorph. I was trying to reprogram my nervous system, to make it self aware so I could reprogram it to de-emphasize my endomorphic traits and bring out my mesomorphic traits. Just to review ectomorphs are skinny nervous cerebral types, endomorphs are mellow, stable fat types, mesomorphs are combative, muscular adventurous types.

So what I was basically doing was being aware of how my nervous system reacts to various situations and trying to bring about a more mesomorphic, reaction. The idea being that through the body mind connection, my body would then start to create a muscular body and burn fat.

I had some initial success, lost weight, got better muscle tone, then developed insomnia and severe irritible bowel syndrome. I had the runs nearly everday for two months and never had one night where I got eight hours of sleep.

Interestingly, two things endomorphs have no problem with is getting enough sleep and digesting their food. Its the ectomorphs that have erratic sleep and eating patterns, nervous stomachs etc.

What I had actually been doing was making myself more of an ectomorph and getting out of balance. So sure, I lost twenty lbs, but had no energy and felt sick all the time. Plus, this whole thing of reprogramming my nervous system as an esoteric expiriment is a very cerebral exercise to begin with, not somthing a pure mesomorph would probably do.

I was living pretty much in my head, and on the internet, a very private secluded existence. I was obsessing over my diet, eliminationg more and more foods, so then I just said "screw it" and went out and got a pizza, some Ice cream a liter of coke and a six pack of beer. As soon as I made the decision to do this I felt better. More mellow, more go with the flow.

So guess what? Today, no IBS. I had eliminated all dairy and wheat and sugar and these foods were loaded with that stuff in an obscene way.

I think really balance is good. I was researching ibs and it turns out it could be linked to issues of under or over control. That makes sense. In the past I had overindulged with food and I over reacted and over controlled my diet. This led to more nervous problems more anxiety.

Also, Wheat, cheese, and Beer, sausage, foods like that are kind of heavy. They ground me. I am high strung enough as it is. Eating basically just vegetables and lean meat, just makes me more spacey, more hyper sensitive to my environment.

The endomorphic qualities balance me. Mellows me out. I think it actually compliments my mesomorphic qualities.