Eight Mile Run today

I have run probably half a dozen times in the last ten years, four of them in the last couple weeks, so you might think that running an eight mile run would be ill advised. I mean, basically, I went from running two miles and feeling like crap yesterday, to running nearly a third of a marathon, with quite a few hills to boot.

I felt so motivated this morning. I have been reading this book, the "Attractor Factor"
By Joe Vitale. It's one of these New Agey, kind of self help books, based on the same principle as "the secret". So there is this exercise where you write down all the things you want to do in life. He said there were two groups of people the first time he did the exercise. Half had these dreams and they wanted to follow them right away and make money later, the other half had dreams but wanted to put them off and concern themselves with making money first. Well Ten years later all the people in the first group were rich and had followed their dreams, and all except one in the second group were still not rich and still hadn't followed their dreams.

The point is, follow your dreams first, worry about money later, you will probably end up making money through living your dream that way. If you do the reverse, you start out with a compromise and try to make money doing something you don't like as much and it saps your energy.

My goal is to be an adventurer. It always has been, and fear has been holding me back. I have some natural talent in Art and hopefully writing, that I need to develop. So I was thinking of imprisoning myself, in a sense, in order to develop my talents, to eventually make money through my creativity, in order to be able to have enough money to travel.

That's doing it the hard, slow way, I think now upon further reflection. Life is too short and I am not eighteen or twenty years old. I don't want to wait till I am in my forties and fifties to go on hard core adventures and hope I am in good shape still.

I want to make money, while I am going on adventures, get my creative juices flowing through my adventures. Go on some massive far flung adventure and write about, then promote the article, get published, then get an advance to go on another adventure and write about it at the same time.

When I say adventure, I am not talking about being a tourist, I am talking about serious trekking, like hiking hundreds of miles through trackless widerness, sailing around the world, traveling to strange lands that few westerners have laid eyes on, canoing huge rivers on several months long journeys, things like that.

I will bring a notebook and a sketch pad and work on my skills at the same time.

This was brought to the surface doing the exercises in this book. The one I mentioned, and also another one, where you visualize, having achieved success, and write a little script of what you feel like, little details of what your day would be like after achieving a goal,then you focus on that energy and attract it into your life.

I wrote about having a big house and lots of money, working as a concept artist for a movie studio, seeing my work on the big screen and it didn't quite do it for me. It was more fulfilling imagine myself being old and financially comfortable, having gone on several amazing adventures and having acheived fame and fortune that way, having written about them and having shared them with the world.

I don't realy want to collect a castle full of shit, I want a tremedous feeling of freedom and adventure, and I want to express my creativity.

So this really motivated me, there was another energetic change, I experienced a huge upsurge of energy, so I decided this morning to go on an eight miler. Probably, I have some sort of muscle memory, my body remembers what it was like in my twenties, to be in really good shape, to be able to run pretty fast and pretty far, so I tried to tp into that feeling.I concentrated on compression and breathing out, keeping my head up, and maintaining a ground eating stride. It was an awesome beautiful run. Its an awesome and beautiful world.

Probably how this will take shape is I will be a freelance writer and artist, punctuated with big stretches of time, like a year to six months at a time, where I will be on adventures. This will be my fuel for creating when I come back to my stints in civilization where I make money and save up for the next adventure.

So that is where I am at right now, I am working on my art and my writing and saving up for a big adventure. Tentatively, by next spring, I'll be gone. But I am open to things working out sooner.