Nietzche describes a "virtuous man" (the old me).

" A virtuous man is of a lower species because, in the first place, he has no "personality," but aquires his value by conforming with a certian human scheme which has been once and forever fixed. He has no independant value: he may be compared; he has his equals, he must not be an individual.

Reckoning up the qualities of the good man, why is it that they appear pleasant to us? Because they urge us neither to war, to mistrust, to caution, to the accumulating of forces, nor to severity: our laziness, our good nature, and our levity, have a good time. This, our feeling of well being, is what we project into the good man in the form of a quality, in the form of a valuable posession."

-Aphorism 319 from "A Criticism of Morality" in The Will to Power

That's the "me" in a nutshell, that I am killing off in order to become a product of my own creation. Especially as a born again. I was totally trying to conform to this frozen fixed scheme.

And basically, it was true, I was a "nice guy" totally safe and non-threatening to everyone. Trouble was though that there was always this other person inside of me I was continually trying to stiffle and kill off. So I am letting him get some air and poke his head out. The thing is though is that he is an ungrateful scorpion. The first ting he wants to do is kill the kind frog that helped him across the stream.