Compression

So, anyway, I was really feeling worn out and run down today, or actually yesturday, since I am writing this at 12:00 in the morning, which is a case in point.

I have insomnia. I am continually kicking on my fight response, so that gets me all geared up and its hard for me to sleep. That is a bit of a hitch in my expiriment. Kicking on the fight response is what will cause my endocrine system to turn me into a mesomorph, but it also causes insomnia. I haven't gotten eight hours of sleep at any time this month that wasn't a weekend.

I'll have to see my way out of this. I am continually pushing myself and looking at my life as me gearing up for a series of fights. The only t.v. I really watch is fighting.

So anyway, I felt crappy, so I decided to go on a run. This is a little tricky because I have been struggling to overcome this flue like bug that has been going around. I have had it for a month. That's how long it lasts. Lots of people in Madison had this. Kombacha tea kept getting sold out at health food stores.

When you train for a fight, you put your body under stress, that is how you become conditioned. Fighters in training are always walking a fine line between getting in shape and getting sick. But, even so I decided to push myself to run. I started running again this week after a 10 year or so lay-off.

I learned somthing, from a book I recently read called "A fighter's Heart" The author was talking to a Tai Chi instructor, about "compression."

When fighters punch, they expel a sharp blast of air. They achieve compression. There are metaphysical applications to this. When you breath in you kind of fall asleep, when you exhale, you wake up. Inhaling is passive, exhaling is active.

Achieving compression, is really important for conditioning. Infact, how well conditioned you are is really a matter of how well you can achieve compression. When a fighter begins to "gas" late in a fight, its because they can't achieve compression. Old and feeble people can't achieve compression. Compression is achieved with the diaphram. This location is associated with "The power chakra" There is power in compression. Compression is power.

This relates to what I am trying to do, here, my whole expiriment, I am trying to achieve compression. When you compress, you assert your independance and stand apart. That's what the power chakra is about. Its a bout personal power, boundaries, things like that. Its not about taking in, its about pushing out. Like "Blam" a punch. "Pow." Like spitting. Ejaculating. Pushing.

A punch focuses power to a single point. This is done with compression. A fighter's eyes are foerce and intense, concentrated.

Now Steve Pavlina, talks about polarization and equates, inhaling with evil exhaling with good. I don't know. Somthing must be backwards. I think maybe its Chistianity.

Yin and Yang and good and evil are not analagous, I think. But whatever it is I am after, its very Yang.

So as I ran along, I thought about compression, how powerfully, I could expel air, and it wasn't very powerfully. I am out of shape. But as I focused on compression, I greatly improved. Its was another metareprogramming short cut I am taling by being aware of my nervous system.

Also I tried to sketch this morning and I was horrible. I need compression to draw. As I thought about drawing and compression, as I ran along, I felt my power chakra really opening up. For the first time I located it and really felt it. When I got home I could draw again.

I was talking about Frazetta earlier and how physical he was? He actually had a stroke or a thyroid problem or somthing and his ability went way down. It lost the physicality. It was much poorer quality after the illness. Mind body connection.

So, I went home, did some more sketching and worked out. If you run opposite days as you do strength training, you work against your self. The running will catabolize the benefet your muscles get from the strength training. If you do both on the same day it won't. I want a lean muscular body and good cardiovascular fitness.

So I got home and banged out 70 push ups in one straight shot, boom boom boom, faster then I have done them in years, actually, I haven't been able to do that many since I was 14-15 and wrestling 145. Its was all power chakra. I will soon be able to do 100 push ups in one shot. The only thing is its kind of boring to me. I mean I get tired as I do them, but I also get bored as they get easier.

But I am becoming more of a masochist, and doing 100 push ups was one of my goals.

Its all will power. If it ain't accomplished through will power, basically you didn't do it. Its vain; ephermeral. Like winning the lottery. Every gimic out there is about accomplishing things without having to resort to will power, but really developing strong will is the best thing you could ever do.